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This is the first page of my diary. Welcome! I can yap and say whatever I want here, kind of.
which is nice, really nice. You can skip here since its a test page haha, and I want to keep it like that. Oh before you go, you can chat with me here, right side of the screen.
Please keep it clean, and don't spam, and don't say bad words.
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Today its like 3/9/2025, 8:35AM
Kinda late, but I'm just testing this out. but seems the website is working fine, so that's good.
Even though it's just a portfolio website, I still like to add such a feature like a diary to write down my thoughts and feelings, where people/internet can get to know me better.
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Ok before starting major things, I wanna introduce myself
I'm Akio, 19 years of age
I live in Turkey but from Egypt. My parents mixed with turkish and egyptian culture, so I'm kind of in between.
My height is 167cm, and yea I'm short. Which is a drag when it comes to girls. Biggest problem in my life...
Well if its asked what I do in my life, I am a student studying in Game Design & Development. I have been studying Game Design actually before I started this course, as If you've seen my portfolio, since 2020.
Lowkey I appriciate my dear Father for thi perfect butterfly effect. When I was just small as a child around 4-6 age. My dad taught me the basic stuff on his 2000s PC workstation, he allowed me to play games, how to use the mouse and keyboard. He also used his PC as a reward if i got good grades to use his workstation. Although each time i interacted with the internet.
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The internet became my sanctuary. I would spend hours exploring different websites, forums, and eventually discovering game development communities.
Those early experiences shaped my passion for digital creation. I remember being fascinated by Flash games and simple pixel art. I'd spend hours just watching game development tutorials, even when I couldn't fully understand them.
My first "game" was just a simple character moving across the screen. I was so proud of it! Looking back, it was barely functional, but everyone starts somewhere.
When I got into Blender in 2020, it was like discovering a whole new world. 3D modeling gave me a way to create the things I had always imagined. I remember staying up all night working on my first character model - it looked terrible, but I was ecstatic!
Now with Godot and my ongoing studies, I feel like I'm finally building the skillset to create the games I've always wanted to play. The indie game scene is so inspiring these days - it shows that small teams with passion can create amazing experiences.
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Well, times change - now I'm creating this webpage to showcase my skills for professional opportunities and collaborations. It feels strange reflecting on my educational journey from middle school through high school (while simultaneously studying game design), never truly believing I'd make it to university.
Each academic transition felt impossibly distant until it suddenly became reality. My prom night particularly stands out - let's just say my attempt at romance didn't go as planned (spoiler: spectacular rejection achieved!). Yet here I am, somehow mentioning this embarrassment twice already!
Now in my university years abroad (having moved from Egypt to Turkey, except for 8th grade which I completed in Turkey previously), life has found a pleasant rhythm. I've made genuine friends and fill my days with laughter. My Egyptian friends remain dear too, despite the distance.
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What continues to challenge me is forming a genuine romantic connection. While focusing on career success might eventually lead to relationships, the wait feels interminable. In solitary moments, I crave emotional support - longing to find someone who truly loves me for who I am.
This might sound desperate, but I genuinely seek a partner with both kind personality and mutual attraction. My height (167cm) often feels like an insurmountable barrier - a genetic lottery loss I can't overcome. It's frustrating witnessing less considerate, taller individuals succeed romantically while I struggle.
While personality matters, initial physical attraction often determines whether I'm perceived as partner material or permanently friend-zoned. This reality breeds discouraging thoughts, though I try to remain hopeful. Perhaps the right person will value character over stature...
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Today, 3/25/2025, I worked on some of the gallery section and made adjustments that make me proud. I also added some things that represent good, tough work—haha!
Anyways, I know the Page 6 was a bit crazy talking about my relationship struggles, but yea life is indeed shitty sometimes, and I guess it was 2 days ago? Where I had a Friday game night party in my Uni, which is just people gather and play
So, to give a quick background, I've talked to this girl whom I've known since the first year. We got to know each other more on Friday night, and it's just crazy how much we have in common. Plus, whenever I make jokes, she genuinely laughs—unlike some people who would fake it, but she doesnt.
You know that this kinda raises questions to me that if I could shoot my shot with her as in serious matter, not scummy fuck boy type besides I praise woman, BUT here is the shitty catch, right; she is way taller than me and actual diva goddess, so when I stick my head into the reality
you would understand the situation I am in lol. There are no any advancements I have done, yet, but Ill try to see, first knowing each other more and i have to make reality thoughts upon if things are working or not yk.
If it doesnt, well fuck me anyway, another moment where REALITY really screws me up, man I hate my appearance, make me very insecure about it
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